Friday, June 14, 2013

Finding Friends, or Why I'm not Everyone's Cup of Tea

Dear Universe, or Whoever is Reading--

I have a hard time keeping friends.  No, that's not quite the right way to put it.  I have a  hard time making deep, important friendships, and then keeping them.  It's not that I'm some sort of social outcast or regularly shunned; it's just that I'm not everyone's cup of tea.

I tend to be a little intense when I'm first trying to get to know someone.  I ask questions that are (probably) too personal.  I view things in a slightly morbid, perverted light.  Wow, even reading that sentence makes me shake my head.  I also expect a great deal from people, and have high expectations of them.  I guess it's that old adage, "treat others as you would like to be treated".  I will be loyal to you until the end of time and expect the same in return.  I will do things that you will think are above and beyond the level of our friendship, which will then make you feel bad because, hey, you think I'm a nice person, but aren't we just acquaintances?!  Then I'll make a bad joke, or inadvertently make fun of something that you really like (The Bachelor, maybe?) and then you'll stop returning my texts, and then maybe cancel plans.  

And I will lose another friend just by being myself.  I try to think of it as a curse and a blessing.  A curse for the obvious reasons, but a blessing because the people who love me for all my flaws and positive attributes are the sort of people who I can count on to help me bury the bodies of those who won't be my friends.

I'm kidding.  Or am I?  

Thank you Morris, Danielle, Sis, and Richard.  I love you all!

Until next time--

Jenna

   

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